The Rotten Buddhist

I have been called things in my life. As a child, the words really hurt. Bullying is real. When kids your age tell you that your clothes are awful, (because they were hand-me downs), or that you were dumb or poor, or whatever else they could summon up, it hurts. cloudy-with-a-chance-of-meatballs-movie-clip-screenshot-a-little-different_large

As an adult, you don’t get made fun directly. Adults, for the most part, don’t come right out and call you a poopy-head to your face. They are sneakier. You end up developing a way to ignore those people. Who cares if someone doesn’t like you, you have family and friends that love you for who you are. So, again, you ignore things, you move on. If a person takes who you are at your core and makes fun of it, it is a little harder to ignore. Especially if that person is close to you and really disagrees with your beliefs and ideals and takes any chance to tell you that. I know someone, lets call them Andy. Andy is an educated person. Andy listens to NPR and knows more about the world then a lot of people our age. Andy is by and large a good person.

Me: I read the news, I don’t listen to NPR. I am educated and by and large I think I am a good person. I also define myself as a Buddhist. Now, that being said. Buddhism isn’t like a lot of religions. Buddhism is a life style. I choose to be kind to everyone, I choose to cause no harm, I choose to help those in need, I choose to value myself and everyone around me the same. I am no better than you and you are no better than me. Not because I feel like I will judged when I die, or because I want to have eternal glory or anything, because I feel like that’s the only way to live. As such, I tend to lean-to this beautiful quote from Mahatma Gandhi — ‘The Earth provides enough for every mans need but not enough for every mans greed.


I don’t think that people need to have all the fancy things that people have. In excess. The boats, the McMansions, the five cars, etc. etc.excess-liability

It is crazy to me. What if all that was used for good? Andy thinks, that if a man works and makes money he should do with it as he sees fit. It isn’t about need it’s about want. They want the house, they should be able to get house. This is where we have a problem. While I am excellent at understanding another persons point of view, I don’t see this one. Want? Why want a bigger house unless you are having more children or taking care of an elderly parent? then it isn’t a want it is a need. Why want five cars when one will do? Why two diamond bracelets? I am not, nor will I ever, judge anyone for having these things. I just wish we lived in a society where people contributed equally. Where we were all equally responsible for everything. Production of food, power, goods, selling of them, etc. A circle that worked together for a common goal. images (4)

Because of this view I have been called a communist.

Communism: is a socioeconomic system structured upon the common ownership of the means of production and characterized by the absence of social classes, money,[3][4] and the state; as well as a social, political and economic ideology and movement that aims to establish this social order – Wikipedia 

Okay – I can see that…except I want people to decide as well. I want the people to share the world! (hokey I know) I want everyone, American, Asian, African, etc. to share all the resources so that not one human life has to suffer. We have vaccines give them to the people who don’t, they have oil give to people who need it, in a beautiful circle where everyone works together. Okay so you’re a socialist. well…

Socialism is a social and economic system characterised by social ownership of the means of production and co-operative management of the economy,[1][2] as well as a political theory and movement that aims at the establishment of such a system.[3][4]“Social ownership” may refer to cooperative enterprises, common ownership, state ownership, citizen ownership of equity, or any combination of these.[5] There are many varieties of socialism and there is no single definition encapsulating all of them.[6] They differ in the type of social ownership they advocate, the degree to which they rely on markets or planning, how management is to be organised within productive institutions, and the role of the state in constructing socialism – Wikipedia 

Okay – sure I can see that too…but again not quite. I think I am more of a Humanitarian Buddhist.

In its most general form, humanitarianism is an ethic of kindness, benevolence, and sympathy extended universally and impartially to all human beings – Wikipedia 



Yes – that sounds about right. “Kindness, benevolence, and sympathy extended universaly and impartially to all humans” Some how this makes me a bad person. Puts me right up their with Stalin and just makes me a horrid, wretched idealist who is going to ruin the world. This obviously is hurtful. I feel pretty sure that I'm not an asshole

Saving worms after a rain storm is horrid? Giving to the food bank is wretched? Wanting every life to be safe and healthy is wrong?

So okay…I am horrid person. I am a rotten Buddhist who shall parish when my time comes into whatever hell awaits me. But, I made a difference for that little worm, I fed a family who might have gone hungry, I used products not tested on animals, I tried to live a good life and be good to people around me. Even people who think my ideals are stupid. I will go to hell for that, and be perfectly happy.


*Andy’s name was changed…just in case they actually read my blog.



  1. Trish Malloch · February 6, 2015

    Excellent I am Proud to be your mom. Screw what “Andy” thinks I wish more people were like you love you.Mommie

  2. WriteForAbsolution · February 7, 2015

    I’m a terrible Wiccan so there’s that. . . .

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